HipHopLyrics.de -> Fast Forward -> Ich und MC BiBaButz LP -> No one's living

Fast Forward slows down to play but this ain´t no game. 
Except the shit in my brain in my head 
nothing remains the same around me. 
Insane thoughts caught me once. 
My mind´s captured in endless loops, can´t help to blow a fuse. 
Back in the days, I thought I was a roughneck but now I´m wrecked. 
All types of B-movies become real in my head. 
My memory, please, won´t you let me 
and let in some light to guide me out of my past 
brighten this nightlike darkness inside. 
Held prisoner in my braincells, take a glance through my eyelense, 
images of memorized violence. 
You could never fathom the dephts that I´ve been in 
and you would never believe in the things I´ve seen, that can´t be seen. 
In words: taking heads to the kerb, it hits, it hurts, it bursts. 
Death passes so slowly, it´s the first day of birth. 
Eye to eye with the beast through a mist of blood. 
I fall my fist clenched strange how life could change this fast 
and you see how fragile it is. 
Take care of my soul, my little sister 
I swear without you I wouldn´t be here. 
You know it: I did not exagerate, 
when I said it an emotional ghetto in the heart I got it. 
Shit! I know that it would have been the same, 
even if I ate tons of Prozac. 
It´s hard to keep my head up, frustated. 
Maimed, but shame I feel the same, what is Pain? 
Restrain this self-pitty Reality´s: life´s dangerous and deadly. 
You´ll remember me when you´re fucked up and you´re lost. 
I can´t stop the teardrops from falling. 
So if you see me, don´t smile. 
I got a hotline to hell, triple six is what I will dial. 
Back is the devil, coming for my ass downstairs in my nightmares 
but who dares to stop him and who can and who cares if I lose my soul. 
Trying not to fall, but after all I lose hold, trip and lose the control.

"No one´s living the life that I live."

I gotcha Nightmares I capture on paper and tape in rapture. 
Writing means danger to me, can´t help going insane. 
Yo I don´t know it anymore have my thoughts also been there before 
or are they second hand implants I forced to grow. 
Somehow imagination runs amok as I self destruct. 
Visions so vivid ... I´m getting drugged up on bad luck. 
There´s no protection to save me, no self deception. 
While I´m trying to relax, I´m attacked by flashbacks. 
Conflicts I seek or create myself because I´m sick, 
it´s like celebrating self-hatred in my lyrics. 
Trying to flee by encoding obscure semetary poetry 
though I know this ain´t a remedy. 
Resignation is daily suicide. 
No one can tell me what it´like to take life, to lose life. 
First I denied and tried to hide thoughts like this when I write. 
They´re coming to me, they´ve allways been common to me. 
The bottom of despair, that´s where I come from. 
I´ve been told to look towards the positive. 
Ey, son, what can it give me, 
living in the haste of our days 
it all seems to me like emotional waste. 
I rap shit, quickness I inflict because I´m angry. 
Evil seeds and a monster´s breed I carry inside. 
Bury my hopes and bury my pride, lower my sights. 
Don´t get it wrong, I´m not afraid to fight. 
I don´t fear death don´t even fear life. 
I got a bloody phantasy making all your demons envious and crazy. 
Still I don´t get it why I´m such a maniac, 
maybe it´s because when you die, sometimes you come back.


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